DEAR GOD,

I come to you, hanging my head in shame.
The unsaid prayers and unspoken thoughts,
Are part of me that haunt mercilessly.
With painful suffocation,
I weep at the feet of righteousness.
Take me, my heart aches for your mercy.

Here I am, helpless and defenseless.
Like a dying flame trying to breathe against the cold.
It has been twenty years!
Years of unlimited mistakes,
Imperfect acts.
I no longer want to lay in the arms of uncertainity.
If I should, then please never leave my side.
Don't give up on me.
I pray.

With a pain that is maddening, physical and sometimes critical,
My soul is craving for your sympathy.
Crying out my apologies.
Pleading for your forgiveness for my unfortunate outbursts...
I never meant to be so ungrateful.
It has always been me, me and me for far too long.
Everything else was just a fantasy to my egoistical ideas.
I only have myself to blame.
My heart yearns to be able to turn back the hands of time,
To clear my messes and start again.
To you, I give my soul, though impure.
'Cause that's all I have to offer for your love and loyalty.
Forgive me Father!